School Day Crushes

The crushes of my life are so many its unreal.... And it goes aaaaaaallllllllllllllllllll the way back to Pre-K..... Cari..... Never spoke to that girl a day in my life.... not even during playtime..... and she still managed to reject me..... lol..... She walked right up to me, and said, "I don't like you." Like really, in Pre-K we can already make those assumptions? At least let me grow up and turn into the asshole that I am..... Then tell me you don't like me! It's ok, I saw up her skirt....hahahahaha

for the looooooooooongest time I had a crush on one girl...... Literally from kindergarten until about 6th grade.... Even when we weren't in the same class I would try my hardest just to go see her.... In kindergarten one day  I was asked to hand out papers.... And as I went around class handing them out, I got to her seat, handed the paper to her and touched her hand.... we both smiled.... Years later, when I was in like 8th grade she was dating my boy and I found out from him that she had the biggest crush on me for a long time too..... *sigh*.... lol....

During that time I also managed to crush on another young lady in my class.... Now with her, it was soooo different.... See, my grade school is in a poor urban neighborhood.... So the majority of the kids that went to school with me were either black or latin..... So there were a lot of brown eyes and brown and black hair..... She was different.... her hair was golden..... like it shimmered in the sun.... And wow, that was so special to me.... She was real pretty too..... I was never too good at hiding the fact I liked some one... But if she had any attraction towards me, I am pretty sure it all went away when in 6th grade, while she was seated in the desk next to me, I ripped a fart so loud my desk rumbled from the vibrations.... Ever seen a naturally tanned kid turn beet red? Yea, that was this guy!

7th and 8th grade I was all over the place.... Girls were starting to blossom into women and me and my little friend were on constant alert..... I had to start walking with my backpack on backwards for fear of being found out.... it also helped create a buffer between me and any girl looking to hug me.... Rough times... rough times.... When the girls would stretch their backs while sitting, I had my eyes focused directly on their chest, hoping to see through the opening in their blouses. When they crossed their legs... same thing.... eyes focused... being a boy at that age isn't easy at all..... lol

One girl stood out though..... see, I was an awkward kid.... not the cutest in the class.... not the most athletic.... not the popular one..... I wasn't the nerd... I was me.... and this girl.... she still spoke to me... Like, I spoke to everyone in class.... But she actually took time out to talk to me.... Even on the phone after school after we graduated.... This went on for a long time too.... right  into High School..... I always wanted to ask her out... Never had the nerve... And one day my boy pressured me to do it.... I was literally sitting with the phone in my hand.... stomach in knots, sweating.... I couldn't do it..... All I could get out was "I like you a lot!" And I instantly hung up..... Never called her again.... she never called me either.... To this day I wonder if she at least liked me back...... Ah, I'll never know I guess....

Talk to you soon....